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* As my frustration for reading (or lack thereof) a book. I decided to turn to goodreads. (Actually, I am just bored and I hate to do work today. I have a few reasons to feel that way. For one, yesterday, was a hectic deadline day. And I am almost done with the deadlines for next week. So it is a "chill" day. Another is that we'd be having a seminar tomorrow so it totally puts off the momentum in working efficiently today.) Anyway, as I sojourn in Goodreads, I realize the reason why I am having a reader’s block. Most of the books in the recommendations are love stories wrappeed around a good plot. There are books with good plots but 98% of them have an annoying love story on the side or most probably at the center. It is painstakingly annoying.

Anyway, I thrived on. I came across with the BOOK THIEF and started reading it.

And for the first few pages I liked it. Like, owh a good book without cheesy love story on the top! And then, somewhere in the middle of the first chapter(s), the novelty wears off. And it talks too fancy for my current state right now that I have to have double takes reading the lines.

Then I went back to Goodreads and come across KAFKA ON THE SHORE, and it looks interesting. Then I read the commemts and a particular phrase struck me “lost in translation”. Such phrase made me realize that I have a fear and nuance with that idea. “Lost in Translation”. I mean, I’ve read a few Norwegian books that are translated in English and so are Paulo Coelho books translated iin English. And so I often wonder how the hell am I suppose  to know that I am getting the real deal? Great interlaced words in the books native tongue could be lost to normal lines when translated. And perfectly interlaced words that would be striking in the translated version may not mean as much in the native language. 

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*Will somebody send my way a good book that will lead me back to my first love?


Not that I am missing it, the truth is I couldn't find in myself the
sense of wanting to read a book.
Like I said, the last time I went inside a bookstore, I felt
claustrophobic and that the books feel like they would attack me. It
is more disturbing that I don't feel like picking up a book. Whenever
my attention stray too long from reading, I have panic attacks and I'd
stop watching and start reading and fall in love with books all over
again.
But not this time. The books aren't calling me forth. And I am feeling
a sense of happiness whenever I watch.
I have a smile on my face that doesn't go away even if I am aware that
I look stupid.
I told my friend about this dilemma and she said I should just savor
this thing going on with watching things and not be paranoid for not
wanting to read. And I accepted her suggestion. But seriously, it is
not normal for me.
Oh well towel.

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I am climbing up the ladder of cynicism.
If the girl who believed in one true loves and destiny
can turn into someone who doesn't believe in everlasting love and
that the future is not set in stone,
then I believe that the girl who loves hugs and physical affection can
learn not to.
and that the girl who cares too much
could cease to care.

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* NEVER EVER tie your happiness with a person.
and that is an absolute rule. no exception.

the first time I read such lines, i thought yeah that's easy.
but subconsciously, i was only thinking of the people I WILL meet.
not realizing that I should sever the ties I tied around people I already know.

and then reality kicks you in the face.
and say STUPID! loud and clear.

so I say. FINE!

I am not tying no nothing on nobody!
I don't care!

Fuck these people.

The less you care the more happy you are biting bullshit.

But I am letting go and I don't care.

I'll be as civil as possible.

but I want them to feel the cold in civil.

This is me severing the ties that must be severed.

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Reliable. Funny. Weird. Passionate. Detailed (very specific).

Those are the five words Sarina would describe me. I asked her to describe me in five words and that's what she came up with. Hmmm...

Sent from my iPod

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I was not put in this life to compete. So stop competing with me. You won't win. No matter how hard you try and not even if I don't try. >:)))) :p

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Uninspired. Mid-week crisis. :p

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Quotes that called me lately. 

*Do not tie your happiness to people or things. Tie it to a goal. 

*Arguing with a fool proves there are two.

*Don't teach your children how to live, live and let them watch you do it.

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*wing clipper. :P
It is hard to accept the realization that a person who is supposed to be "one of the winds beneath your wings" turns out to be a wing clipper. bastard!

*I wonder what kind of self-fulfillment some people get from seeing/expecting the worst of/from other people. messed up creatures.
(Who hurt you?! - Cam, Modern Family).

*Saying "I don't have time" is obnoxious under certain circumstances, like let's say, when you REALLY HAVE time. OBNOXIOUS. The Obnoxiousness of some people are up my neck already. It's way past my understanding and tolerance.


*yay! this post is turning in to a rampage of negative vibes I've been dwelling with the past few hours.

*The thing is there are good stuffs with these downers,

For one, the wing clippers make you realize you don't need there so called wind beneath your wings. It is nice to know that your wings are sturdy enough without them. It is free-ing. :D

The good thing about the Obnoxious is I have relearned to sojourn through gadgets and websites AGAIN on my own. Cause I got lazy relying on obnoxious. Now, I am pretty back on  my old reliable horse. :D

Lastly, having messed up creatures that have been hurt in the past and is lashing out in the present makes you know and realize what you don't want to be. :D

*great turn around for this post. :D :D :D

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just checking how a gif works here. :D (those are the twins by the way.)

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* our office internet is so damn slow. it will take forever to download the 3rd season of big bang theory. gah!

*the father was upset yesterday. because my sisters and i went to the mall and not have our lunch at home. sarina and i went to trinoma to eat sbarro and brother's burger. the twins went to trinoma to have their post birthday shopping spree. father was upset because he said "sunday na nga lang tayo na bubuo tapos aalis pa sila". i am not entirely sure if that is the main reason or if it is just because we were supposed to have crispy pata for lunch and he went from crispy pata to tuyo (dried fish).

*bought my parents coco bun from breadtalk. they both loved it. :D they say it tastes like pan de coco, which i can not relate to. my mother asked how much it was and i said 33 each. and she was just shocked. she said it was too expensive for a bun. but i was happy i found something i can bring them whenever i go out...hehehe...and my mother, though shocked with the price, asked if there's more. hahaha. i only bought two cause i wasn't sure if they'd like it.

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*sinking my teeth on big bang theory and modern family. :D
loving both series-es! :D

*today, i went in a book shop and felt suffocated.
i never thought a day like this would come.
but it felt like the books were attacking me.
and i am quite lazy nowadays to pick up a good book and read it.
what is happening to me?!

*and one of my sisters are following my blog. so i guess i have to
reread my entries and edit my grammatical errors.